to her own refelection, she said " i will be strong"
11:49 p.m. - 2003-08-07

so i realized that this whole hing is totally stupid. its more than stupid its fucking retarded.. why am i hurting over this? its not worth it.. at all.. so im gonna get over it.. i am over it.. cause all of it.. its not worth the heart ache.. ive had nothing bnut heart ache since i starting with all these guys.. you know? i didn't have drama.. the most drama i had was listening to andrea and sarah fight about crapo.. and now.. andrea is the one with no drama.. shes with crapo and me and sarah are each fighting over a guy.. a guy not believe us.. a guy not even remembering who we are.. i mean... really what kind of friends are those? i just heard korys voice.. it made me stomach drop.. i mean.. maybe im not over him.. i have a feeling that when i see him.. im either.. all my feelings are gonna come back and im gonna just either beak down or yell and be angry.. or.. im not gonna care.. i really want it to be the second one...

Tomorrow is sarahs b day.. well actually it is right now.. 12:04.. shes 17 now!! for 4 mins.. and i called her.. i hoefully was the first person to call her and hopefully i won't be the last.. she deserves so much more then whats she shooos for.. remeber that alright sarah.. because youre a great girl who deserves the world.. and i would if i could gve it to you.. alright.. i love you guys..

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