...and i started tearing down those walls...
5:29 p.m. - 2003-10-23

once again.. i end up hurt.. i knew this was gonna end up like Kory.. why don't i ever learn

I really wanted me and Patrick to be different.. it seems i always pick the asshole out of the crowd..

I should have figured it out when he never called me.. he would say alright ill call you back and never do it.. so heres my plan.. im not gonna call him.. if he likes me or even cares about me he'll call me right? I mean.. I was like his little play toy on the weekends.. He got when he wanted.. It seems that i think if i have sex with a guy he'll like me.. but it never ends up that way.. I always end up hurt.. and his asshole friends who called me yesturday.. they played a real dirty joke.. i thought. it was actually patrick and that he actually cared about me.. but obiviously not.. and it pisses me off when he said.. ill do it later.. no.. i want you to do it now! i just wanna cry.. it seems like all im having is bad luck this week.. i dunno..

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