or give me a look so cold
7:25 p.m. - 2003-12-04

So i think im about to give up on Max.. I try and I try and nothing happens.. he never calls me back or anything.. i dunno.. But anyways.. im soo sick right now.. like.. horribly sick.. i think i might die.. for reals. i keep coughing and my throat hurts and my nose is all plugged up.. and i just.. want to cut my head off because it hurts.. my mom was like maybe you had aids because you can't get well.. well thanks mom!.. i love you too.. i dunno.. but i really want to get tested did you know 1 in 3 americans have hiv? ive slept with 6.. so that means 2 of the people that ive slept with.. has had hiv.. my chances.. are.. yea.. not that good.. but i really wanna go.. but its not like i have the money now anyways.. my check $112, and i have like 40 in the bank.. not even enough to pay for insurance.. wtf? im soo tired of this.. like for reals.. i want money!!!

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