if you wanna play this like a game.. well come on come on lets play
7:32 p.m. - 2008-01-18

soo.. its been awhile.. I can't believe how long its really been, how much my life has changed..

I just wanted to get something off my chest and this was always the place I did that.

I cheated on my ex-boyfriend.. right before we ended it. It upsets me because before I went on that trip I told myself- If you don't hook up with anybody, you'll be able to make it.. Like I was testing myself. Does that mean every relationship I'll cheat on them? What doesn't help was that the guy I hooked up with, also had a girlfriend.. and we both ended our relationships when we went back home.. and now were sort of together.. we act like were together but technically were not together.. I can feel myself starting to fall for him and everyone aorund tells me that i've already fallen for him just haven't admitted it yet..

I'm so getting off track.. I wanted to talk about why I've always cheated on every relationship.. well everyone but joey.. I think somewhere along the way someone messed it up for me...

hmm.. I'll just take things as they come.. no use really worrying about it.. I just have to grow as a person..

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