how will i know limits from lies if i don't try?
7:41 p.m. - 2009-02-20

its february 20th 2009.. I'm still in jersey and I feel proud... I grew up in a matter of months. No more do I put up with bullshit no longer do I take what I don't deserve. I'm just very proud of myself. I pay all the bills, I have my shit together. I broke up with Jim this week. The old me.. would have never never broken up with him. Would have made excuses.. "oh he didn't mean it... its just a bump in the road" He told me to shut the fuck up and I turned around and said no one will speak that way to me.. YOU will not speak to me that way ever again. I told him that we were done.. and thats been that.. Of course I had to change my number but whatever.

I think this was God's way of showing me how far I've come and how much I've grown as a person. I deserve someone who is just as independent as me. Someone who will treat me and who I won't hesitate to treat with the upmost respect because lets face it, no one treats everyone amazing most of the time. I just want someone to respect me, to respect themselves. I'm going to be me for awhile. No boys.. no Logan, no Ryan, no TPP, nothing.. just me.. Everyone needs a little me time right?

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